When the world gets me down... I switch off. My phone and my iPod. Then I experience all sort of emotions... usually they're negative. It all ends in anger and me wanting to express my feelings, to someone or something - that's why I wrote this blog post.
Do you ever feel, you have what it takes to succeed but because of certain things or people you'll never be able to achieve it?
I'm incredibly proud and I thank God that he gave me artistic hands but, strangely it's not recognised. I'm seen as boring because i'm not like other girls.
Art has been one long journey for me, I started giving up several times and noticed that many people were much better. It took ages to perfect it and I still am. I have confidence in my talent. I have a lack of self confidence because of the environment around me and it was actually an incident that sparked this blog post. A lot of people say and think I show off, not to my face though - however I know in my heart that I worked hard to get this far, I worked hard to own the amount of pens and paints that I do.
At my stage in life, I guess its about socializing, forming relationships and well - being a teen. I'm finding it hard to grow up I guess. We all go from not caring about what we look like, to spending hours in the bathroom. We all go from toys and Disney movies to makeup and cell phones.
I tried to make this change too fast and wished I had slowed down. Everyone I ever changed myself for never deserved it really.
I just feel emotionally unstable at the moment so yeah, end of rant.
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